Blondie

New man!

2004-09-16T17:10:00.000+01:00

Hey guys, Hope all is well, I'm doing good! Finally got my ass up and got a job..... Only at the shop next door, part time but should get me some extra cash!I am also seeing someone new.. His name is matt and he 24 at goes to Birmingham uni, live round the corner from me. He seems really nice too! I have been playing pool loads and doing trying its really cool cuz I have some really nice friends there. I get on with most of the people there and there really nice!! Not got much else to say. mwah! X

2004-08-31T13:31:00.000+01:00

Hey guys, long time no speak! Sorry haven't really had much to say, lifes been pretty boring really, I still haven't got a job cuz I'm a lazy bitch! Haven't been up to that much really, had a date on Sunday which wet really well, he is a really nice bloke and we will be seeing each other again. It was really nice cuz he was a true gentleman! He turned up with a teddy, chocolates and my personal fav VODKA! He got a hotel room cuz I didn't know him well enough to have him stay at mine!He was just really nice and I am glad we met! I have also joined a league online, pool! Its really good, I have got ok at it too, won 5 tourneys already! I have met some really lovely people too, people I get on well with, some more than other but there's some I don't really know so I need to get to know them some more! I really enjoy playing cuz everyone gets on well and there always a fight in the lobby which is funny, normally lise who is involved or Carrie! Also people help you like today Dean was helping me with my break which was nice, I was playing him at the time so its nice that winning isn't always everything to them! My 'friend' is coming down in 17 days for the weekend and I cant wait! Really looking forward to it, miss him loads when I don't get to talk to him! Just about to play a trny, talk soon xxxxxx

Feeling good!

2004-08-16T16:18:00.000+01:00

Hey guys! Hope all is well, I am good! I feel loads better after the flu! Feeling loads better in myself, I had a really good weekend, Saturday my mate came round for the day which was fun, we had angle delight and a bloody good laugh, went to bingo with my mum Saturday night which I have to say, was really, really good! We didn't win but it was nice spending time together and just having fun!! Then on Sunday I went to the grove (trent) and my mum, step dad, brother, Adam, terry and Chris where there! Other than my mum they had been there all night, drinking and smoking, me and mum went on the Sunday, mum fished and got the biggest fish!! wahoo, plus on Friday night I had a bottle of Irish meadow and invited a 'friend' who has a girlfriend round and we where having a laugh, we have known each other for ages! We was both very drunk and we, you know! I don't regret it but I know the girlfriend so its not good! It had been on the cards for ages, I have like him for about 2 years! This week I am going to the hospital with my mate on Thursday (wont go into it) and then on Saturday going to see my mate again, then Saturday night I am meeting my ex for a few drinks, haven't seen him for ages so that will be cool!! And a good thing, the friend I told you about that I had feelings for, he is coming to stay with me for the weekend in 4 weeks and 4 days!! wahoo, that's cool!Let you know if anything else comes up. Natalee

PPAAIINN!!

2004-08-07T21:17:00.000+01:00

Hey guys, miss me?! Sorry I have been so quiet, I have been in bed for nearly a week with the flu! Its not nice!! It don't seem like I'm getting better! Not been up to anything, went out last night (feel even worse now) was such a bad idea, hasn't helped my cold one bit! Had a fight with my friend too!! Tut tut never mind! Been getting nasty messages on my tag board with I have now deleted from someone who needs to grow up! I can handle you saying you don't like my site but don't be so nasty to me or the people that disagree with you! Its don't bother me what you think hunni but this is my site and I am sure you DON'T have to come on it! Anyways, this computer screen is not helping my head ache!! Speak soon guys!! xXx

Gosh i am bored!!

2004-07-31T09:52:00.000+01:00

Hey guys, sorry nothing exciting to tell you! Havent been up to much, Sorta met a guy through a 'friend' he seeems really nice but a little younger like 2 years which is really weird! been speaking to him loads on the phone and he is really nice! might meet up with him soon! She cant stop thinking about my 'friend' but its nice that we chat and text even tho we shouldnt really! Its hard tho knowing i will never be with him but still cool that we are such good friends! beed friends for 2 years now! been reading my book in the garden which is cool to get a little sun!! Theres a PT job going with one of my dads friends shop and i am going to apply for it!! that will be cool if i can get part time work! anyways, chat soon and will tell you all about how it goes with this guy, who i have to let you know, is from London, was 4 years ago so has lost his accent loads but still there a little wahooo!! LOL :-) See ya soon guys!! XxX

Vain is so not my thing!!

2004-07-27T11:39:00.000+01:00

Hey guys, well I haven't been up to too much, I had my 'friend' over for the weekend,it was nice really, didn't feel right and we didn't hug until he left! I still have all these feeling for my mate and its getting hard cuz I cant have him and I don't like it! Had a guy round the other day who I met in the pub and god he was boring, he was really overly eager, which isn't a turn on already. Everytime he walked past the mirror he looked in it for ages then he turned round and said 'I am good looking aren't I' i was like, my gosh! Then he said, do you think I'm good looking??? So I said (and I was kinda proud after) 'yes u r but your not as nice as you think you are!' LOL it was well funny but then I was like ok how do I get rid of him, so I started pretending to go to sleep. But guess what he did!? Came over and sat and the settee and put my legs on his knee then started laying on me, So I got up and went on the chair, he got the message then and left!! I hate men like that, there's no room for him to fancy someone else when he fancies himself that much!!I have been really bored this week so far, I got the papers for the college which I am going to fill in tho! Mums gone away for the weekend and she don't get back till tomorrow I think!! So I cant event go see her, I have had to shower (I have a bath but like showers more) at my dads which isn't something I want to do cuz I don't get on with my dad! I have had some pics put in of me and my family from oz in Boots so I am going to pick them up later hopefully!! Anyways cya soon guys xXx

Bring on the weekend!!!

2004-07-23T00:13:00.000+01:00

Hey guys! last night i went to mums for a shower (i only have a bath!) ended up in the pub!! Was cool played pool, had a laugh, won some games with a few good players, which is always fun!!! got a little drunk i had 6 pints and 2 double vodka's, lets just say i was VERY drunk! It was a really good night! met up with a guy i use to fancy when i was younger! Appently use to like me too!! had fun, walked me home and we chatted!! today i have had a laugh, woke up with a really nice hangover. Went into town for a wee while then my friend came round and we had a chat and arranged for her to come and help me paint my room this weekend! got a few things to do to be honest! i am having someone over for the weekend which i have to say i am looking forward to, i havent seen him for like 3 weeks and i miss him a little! he is coming till sunday! Just going to bed now!! talk soon!! xXx

Can you fall in love with a friend!?

2004-07-20T11:11:00.000+01:00

Hey guys, hope all is well! I'm cool, I had a good chat with a 'friend' yesterday and admitted to some feelings which is always scary, but turned out he felt the same way! It very weird cuz he has a girlfriend and don't live round the corner, altho maybe that makes it easier! I have known him for I would say getting on for 2 years!!When ever I'm down he is the one I turn to and the one that is truly there for me, he drops everything to make me smile and feel better, tells me the things I need to know and is a pure diamond! I don't know what I would do without him sometimes!! He was there when I went through pain etc with my ex and the whole time he had feeling for me too, but that's not why he did it, he is just such a great bloke, sexy too!! The problem is he has a girlfriend and there a few more complications that I wont talk about! Its so hard cuz I really want to hug him but I know if that happened I would want more and its not far on any of us! I talk to him all day on msn and its great, he is great! And I miss him when I don't talk to him! Its really hard! But I know he feels the same and that makes me happy!!! Talk soon! X

looking up!

2004-07-17T22:45:00.000+01:00

Hey guys, hows you? I'm good, Doing really well, I have met a guy (on the internet) that lives in london, i know its weird all the internet stuff but we are just chatting! He is suck a great bloke, he is sweet, kind, sexy and has an accent to die for! He makes me laugh more than i have had before and that is really good cuz its normaly me thats the one trying to make people laugh but he dont even have to try, he is soo funny!! Anways i will let you know how that goes! Family have gone back to aus and i miss them soo much, when they went back i was in bits, but my cousin said she is going to come down and see us when she is older! i cant wait!! I'm having a nice night in to relax and get ready for next weekend where i'm having a mad one!! anyways, love ya and leave ya! XXX

Life only gets better!!

2004-07-15T18:51:00.000+01:00

Hey guys! I'm good, life is going good right now! Had a good night last night, went out for the night, got very drunk! Watched daddy daycare (which is good)then got home this morning really early! So have a nice hangover! Today I have done very little, spoke to someone that a care about and we are going to meet in a couple of weeks when he gets back, he has gone home for a little while! Really looking forward to seeing him again! And he is gorgeous too! He is at uni training to be a personal gym trainer!! "yum' 'yum' and I have to say sexy with it! Bold head and green eyes! Dreamy! And to be honest that's all I have to say right now, going to watch Big Brother later!! Talk soon! XxX

Forgive and forget!

2004-07-14T18:55:00.000+01:00

Hey guys, well tonight I'm feeling good, am going out in 5 mins and am looking forward to it! I'm loving single life again!! Going out having loads of fun! Spoke to Will today and have arranged to meet up in a couple weeks as friends, so that should be good, and now I have calmed down I have to say he isn't as bad as I say he is, we did have load so of fun, I watched the worse game of football in my life with him and he made me feel a little better bless him and we had a really good weekend together, so he is lovely when he wanted to be but obviously he just didn't want to be that much with me!! That cool tho but I don't think I will ever forget him!! Anyways will be back to chat tomorrow!! XxX

2004-07-14T16:35:00.000+01:00

Hey guys, just wanted to show you me with brown hair, i kinda like it now, its grown on me loads, i think i mght keep it!! Talk soon!! XxX

People make mistakes, Or do they?!

2004-07-14T14:07:00.000+01:00

Afternoon guys!! Well yet again Will (ex) has been texting me saying he misses me and regrets what he did and not being with me!! He was (drunk) again and it is getting a little silly now, Why does he keep texting me when he is drunk, does he really miss me or is he just bored and drunk, MEN are really weird. Anyways will chat later!! XX

Blood is always thicker than water!

2004-07-13T00:15:00.000+01:00

Hey guys, well last night I got a text from my 'ex' saying he didn't like what I wrote on here and said a few nasty things then said sorry in the morning(he had, had a drink so was a little drunk) but saying he didn't agree with me saying that I thought he had cheated on me, well let me tell you a few things and if he does read this then I'm sorry but I have to tell you and if I'm wrong then that's cool, but I would love to know! We both use to look at each others messages, not so much to see who has text but just to read them really, well one day I find some messages (in a folder) from 2 girls both arranging to meet up, both I have to say of which he has met on the internet! So anyways 'apparently' there just mates, bla bla so he has arranged to meet one =, lets call her 'Claire' so he is meeting Claire, his 'mate' and they go out, I don't keep bugging him all night like most would, he comes home and rings me and says, and I quote ( I think we should have a break..) And so ok, that happens next thing he is going out with none other than, CLAIRE! Who turns out that he hasn't known her for ages but he met her online while he was with me!!! Then he tell me that he is sorry and he didn't do anything behind my back etc, do you think I'm wrong in thinking he did?! So that why we split anyways! Right and tonight I had such a good time, I went out with my family from aus and all the rest, there was about 15 in total, we went out for lunch, and I have to say, it was really nice seeing my family all together having fun!! The ones from Aus go home on sat, I'm going to miss them soo much, I really like having them around and I know its not going to be the same without them, hopefully I will get to go see them soon or something, that would be nice!! Been thinking loads today about stuff, and I don't Miss Will, I'm really happy to start seeing someone else, plus there's a few guys have asked me out so might see how that goes, talk soon guys!! XXX

Saturday night, In or out?!

2004-07-11T15:48:00.000+01:00

Hey guys, Went out last night, gosh did I get drunk! I started drinking about 5 with my best mate and we got ready and drank a bottle of vodka then went out and got sooooo drunk it was shocking, dancing all night, got home about 4am. It was a really good night (that I remember) but in the morning, like everyone I regret it! on the boyfriend front, I am single! We met up and we have lost the spark we had and we have called it a day! I found out a few things about him anyways, turns out he aint such a nice lad, and i think he cheated on me, you know i have to wounder if there is a nice straight bloke out there, i met a guy a while back and he is lovely, he rang me today and we are going to meet up i will see how that goes and i will tell you all about it! I have also dyed m hair 'Brown' Its really weird cuz I haven't ever had hair that dark, going out last night was weird, not use to going out with 'brown' hair obviously and it was just weird! Had fun tho, been really ill today, was meant to going out with my family (from aus) cuz they go home next week but I couldn't go cuz I was so ill! Just watching eastenders, haven't really seen it this week, then I think I'm going to Watch a film I feel so bad. Anyways guys, gotta go! Will write soon. Natalee XxX

Vodka is never good in bulk!!

2004-07-08T09:33:00.000+01:00

Morning guys, Hope all is well!! I'm good, got very drunk last night, and am feeling it now. The crap thing is I always wake up really early when I have had a drink the night before, which makes me feel worse all day!! Going to have a lazy day today, just chill and try to get to sleep. I'm going to do more for my page, and I am doing a shop so if your interested in buying something the link will be up soon. In regards to the 'boyfriend' I spoke to him today but he was on a tram and didn't want to talk about it, which is understandable! He asked me to ring later so I will let you know. And in regards to ME Well yesterday I had a good friend take me out all day, for dinner, a few games of pool and get me pissed at night, was loads of help, made me feel so much better even tho I have the hangover of a lifetime!! Anyways guy, will let you know how things go will 'ex boyfriend' later! Cya Natalee XxX

The morning after the night before!

2004-07-07T12:02:00.000+01:00

Today is turning out to be a great day, once you take a step back and see what you have, it seems like your silly for even thinking you havent got it! I had a really bad day yesterday, i split with my boyfriend on top of things and it all seems so bad, today i have realized, he/it dont matter, now i have the chance to have fun with my friends now worry what someone thinks of me! I'm having a good day LOL anyways, gotta go, will talk soon!! XxX

The 'real' Natalee!

2004-07-07T00:42:00.000+01:00

Hi and welcome to my site! I want to tell you a little about me, I'm normally
the one that makes everyone laugh, bit mad, not scared to be loud! Loves
having fun, takes nothing too serious! But that's not who I am right now! I
quit my job (as a croupier) last month. I wasn't sleeping which was making me
different, mardy, hardly ever smiling, that's not me!! Plus with me not
sleeping I was getting every cold, bug etc that was going around which isn't
good! So I left and now I'm skint, have my own flat and feeling a little
alone! I didn't really know who to talk to so that why I'm talking to you!
I cant really explain how I'm feeling cuz I don't really know myself, I just
feel alone, unloved, uncared for, like I'm in some world, Dreaming. I feel
like I just want to curl up in a ball and never wake up! I know what it is
cuz I have felt it before!! Its called depression and if I don't sort myself
out soon I don't know that I will be able too without anti-depressants! I
worry about what you all think of me, I get scared people will think I'm
weird, mad, crazy but I'm not. And anyone you ask that knows me will tell
you I'm the not! I'm just going through something bad right now and will
soon be over it! Over the next however long you will get to know the 'real'
Natalee, The one that nobody really know. Not even my best mates! This is
just a small amount about me and I'm sure over some time I will give you
enough to make up your mind about me! Will write again soon! Natalee XxX

Is this your fist time too?!

2004-07-06T13:08:00.000+01:00

This is my first message, I'm still working out what to do! Welcome all to my page!Hope you like what i write and come back to read more! Natalee XXX